Tuesday, March 20, 2007
can't stop
I can't stop watching the sonogram. I tell Sam that I miss her. He says, "how can you miss her? She's inside of you and you've never met her?" I can't explain it, but I love watching that video! I love her little arms and hands and legs and feet. She only weighs 8 oz and yet she is a whole person...part me, part Sam...crazy.
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That is an interesting thought of missing an unborn child. It makes me smile. I understand Sam's response, I have had similar reactions to people when they say they will get to 'meet' their child when it is delivered. But now I say 'meet' too, just to fit in though, I don't really count it as an introduction in my head.
On another note, I am proud to say that I watched the entire video. All nine minutes of it. I could see the heart or the hearts effects. I told Sam that I found myself waiting for something to happen, mostly because it was two in the morning and I was still a bit buzzed from downtown life. But when the video ended and the two red boxes asking me to watch again or share the video I was surprised. It was like watching a person.
It is good to know that I am not the only one watching the video over and over again. I thought maybe it was just a crazy Granny thing. It makes my arms ache because I want to hold her and tell her how much I love her. So, I think that missing her makes perfect sense.
I think about her all day long and love her so much already. I felt like I knew you and Clayton before you were born. I didn't have a sonogram to watch, but I felt you and your brother moving inside of me. I could see little bumps on my belly and wonder if it was an elbow or a knee or a foot. I talked to you, sang to you, read books to you and ached to hold you in my arms long before either one of you was born. I guess that qualifies as missing you.
Being a Mommy is just the greatest thing in the world, except maybe being a Granny.
I love you my sweet daughter and I love you too my sweet granddaughter. I will see you again tonight, on the computer screen.
i get this. i remember holding harry for the first time and saying "i never knew how much i missed him until he arrived."
wait until she gets here. it's awesome.
i said that all the time too, exactly what mama luckie said - even though she was in me, i missed holding, kissing, cuddling, smelling, seeing her. in just a few weeks, my friend. love you!
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